This is my last post as being employed for an unknown period.
So fun right?
I don’t want to leave my friends and the literal job itself. And I can’t think of anything really funny to say in this sentence.
I did just realize that I have really good spaghetti and meatballs in the fridge from Ricco’s, so that’s something.
I think the key now is, that word I can’t think of….when you convince yourself to get up and do things…MOTIVATION. I need to self motivate. Which people with depression…is damn near impossible. I could take the Ritalin but it’s basically speed and yes I get buzzing but it’s literal buzzed. I feel high and if I’m around other people they notice immediately. The point is that you don’t even notice you’re sad so score.
Went and got the spaghetti, lost my phone along the way. It can be anywhere. But I bet if I took the Ritalin I could find it faster. Ha.
Days at home will mean lots of things that can be positive if I don’t let it get away from me and spiral.
You know what, look out everyone. This girl is gonna pop some “speed” and get so much written I’ll flood the contests and become really famous. Okay sounds good. I’ll let you know in my next post which will most likely be filed under “unemployment” J